Monday, October 4, 2010

Good day. Long day. Interview at Stop&Shop grocery store. Hired to work part-time at the in-store Starbucks. So with both jobs combined I'll be working at least full time, maybe more. Nice. I'll be making some money. AND, I got some anxiety meds today. Nothing crazy but I think it will help. I don't talk about it too much, I don't know why. I have super bad anxiety. Maybe because I lived with it for so long that most of the time I figured I was just going to have to go through life anxious and unhappy because of it forever. But I really like me new counselor and my new Doc, so who knows. Maybe with my 'team' I'll actually be able to get off this fricken methadone shit for good. And maybe I'll eventually be able to go into a store without sweating profusely, heart pounding, loss of breath, tingling fingers. That would be cool.

2 comments:

Verity Vaudeville said...

I have some anxiety too and like you thought before, I think I'll always have to deal with it in some form. Let me know if that medication works 'cause I might consider something like it. Although it's hard to imagine my life without my anxiety.

Congratulations on the second job, you rock :)

Jeannie said...

I hope the meds work for you. I had anxiety forever - didn't really know what it was. I'm better now, for the most part. There are still things that wig me out a bit.

VV is the shit

VV is the shit
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