I know I complain a lot. I know it's because I did a really bad job of making good choices when I was younger so now I'm paying for it with a life that amounts to barely scraping by and hating most of what I have to do every day. I love being alive when I can enjoy the good things in life, like food, comfort, friendship, animal companionship, and outdoor adventure. And now that I know what I should have done to create the life I wish I had, I'm trying to do that stuff now, but it's harder as you get older to finish school because you still have to pay rent and eat and all that stuff. So I see all these years stretched out before me where not that much changes and I'm still just stuck.
I'm in a really bad mood right now. I'm having female issues and there's no bathroom in the stupid shacks they make us work from - well, there's a bathroom in the back shack but not in the front. So when you have to go to the bathroom, you have to walk about a half a mile to get there. There is also no reliable heat and hardly any insulation so it gets really cold. Then you turn on the heat which blows really hot air right on your head and back until it feels like you're being roasted alive, so you turn the heat off and get cold sweats. Or you can sit with the heat on and the window open until someone comes by and bugs out about wasted energy.
I wish I could have a job that consisted of standing up for what's right in this world. I wish I could feel like I had some way or ability to change all the fucked up shit in this world. Or at least feel like I was trying to change things. Working at a fucking trucking company, I feel like I'm just exacerbating certain issues like poor fuel economy, high food prices, and pollution. Not to mention, by working at a company like this and not standing up for my rights it's as if I'm condoning the way they treat their workers. And not just us security guards, everyone in the whole warehouse except those at the very top get treated like they are no different than a truck wheel or a power jack.
My boss told me last week that he could "force" me to work mandatory overtime on Christmas week. I'm not scheduled to work Christmas. My family lives three hours away, I've already made holiday plans - unless he's going to tie me to the fuckin' chair and puppet my hands across the friggin keyboard - nobody FORCES me to do anything. Nobody but myself can force myself. Is it 1772? Am I a slave? An indentured servant? NO, NO, and NO!!! So Force? I don't think so. I, on the other hand, can force you to fire me and then I can force you to pay me unemployment while I sit at home and half assed pretend to look for a job while I really sit around and watch movies and smoke up all day long. I can force HIM to work Christmas when I call from Boston on the morning of and say I am not going to make it. More money, more responsibility. If no one takes the overtime, it's his responsibility to work the shift, he's the supervisor, I didn't take the f'n job. He's the one who decided to okay someone vacation time over the holiday before making sure it could be covered. Fuck him. This job is not worth it. I only see my family on the holidays. I look forward to it so much. Not to mention my mom is highly emotionally unstable and I am NOT telling her I'm not coming after I already told her I was. This is not a career for me. I can get a ten dollar an hour job anywhere. Sure, I like working alone most of the time - but I'm sure I can find something else where I'm alone a lot only during the daytime, and no holidays. I'm thinking of volunteering at a local humane society until I get my feet in the door, and then maybe when a paid worker quits I could get a job there. I would love, love, love to work with animals. I prefer animals to people more than I should admit.
Fuck, I could work at a gas station and it would be a lot less grief than this. When you don't love what you do, and when a job is not a career, and the pay is shit - it's probably not a good idea to attempt to leverage me with threats. Is he f'n crazy? Then he tells me because I don't have kids I should work the holiday. Can you say "Sue your pants off, asshole?" That's a lifestyle choice I have made consciously. The planet is overpopulated with kids whose parents suck at raising them and I'm going to be punished for opting against adding to the problem? Why not just say all gay people have to work holidays since they shouldn't have kids anyway? Why stop there? What about old people - make them work, they're useless anyway, right, corporate greedsters? Isn't there some sort of organization I can report this place to?
At least OSHA would probably have an issue with no bathroom available to us out front, heat that breaks all the time when we have to go out in the rain and snow. No hazard pay for working nights, outside in inclement weather. We never get safety bonuses like the rest of the warehouse. We have to work alone, in the dark with strange men coming from all over the country. I'm sorry, but I don't think it's asking too much to be compensated for all the risk we encounter. I also don't think it's out of line to want to work in a place which provides the basic necessities like bathrooms and heat. Right in our handbook and on signs all over the facility they claim to provide a safe, healthy, comfortable, and productive working environment. I don't feel safe, it's certainly NOT healthy, absolutely the opposite of comfortable - all of which lessens productivity.
On top of all this, they threaten to fire you if you look into unions activity at all. Human Resources works for the company, not the employee so how, really, am I supposed to feel protected by them? What recourse do I have? Is quitting or getting myself fired the only way?
I know it's not but I just don't know where to begin or if it's even a battle I want to fight. One shitty job is not so different from another shitty job while all I'm trying to do is work my way to the other side of shitty jobs and shitty life altogether. I've aways been a proponent of surrounding oneself with people you want to be like. I really, really don't want to EVER be like any of these people. I do not want to be a corporate slave drone all my life and I won't.
6 comments:
I can't believe that motherfucker told you he could "force" you to work X-mas. Bullshit.
Sorry things are sucky right now.
I like animals more than people, too, and dream of working with them in some capacity.
Love you Nellie,
SB
I, on the other hand, can force you to fire me and then I can force you to pay me unemployment..
You should look into this first. In many states if you're fired for cause you don't get unemployment. And even if you do, it's rarely enough to live on without extra money.
Yeah, SB, I know....what a jerk. I haven't heard a word about it since that night either. He better get on it or I'll take back my offer to cover even a little bit of the time.
Oh, and to anyone who cares.....do these weirdo Anons seriously think I'm going to spend my energy reading their comments and actually caring what they have to say when they can't even stand behind their own opinions. Come out of hiding MF and say it to my face. You may get some cred then.
Is there a true way to be successful in life, financially, yet somehow remain void of corporate practices?
Don - yeah, totally, I think. There are definitely large and small successful companies that somehow maintain an ethical workplace. More and more businesses are building their workplaces with "green" materials meaning non-toxic paints and carpets, more windows and fresh air, some are even using alternative energy or installing earthen rooftops.Some are even going as far as using recycled building materials. Statistics show that working at these places, people call out less and have overall better health and general well-being. This doesn't necessarily mean these companies aren't corporations. Some are. I don't think one absolutely needs to go corporate to be successful financially though. There are definitely small, independent companies out there that turn a really impressive profit. But I suppose it depends what you mean by "successful". If you're thinking personal jet, sure, a small business may not amass that level of wealth. But if what you want to feel successful is simply a safe, comfortable home, a reliable vehicle, enough money for you and your family to live happily....well, then, you should be successful. the only problem I can see is that there aren't ENOUGH companies taking these measures. There aren't enough people willing to make employee well-being a priority. It shouldn't be a choice. Just like regular labor laws, they need to make laws about how a healthy a work environment has to be. Physically and emotionally.
Sorry..I guess my point is that the right thing can always be done. And when you really do something right, you're usually doing it well....and anything done really well is generally successful, no?
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